Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Hiding Out

I have taken the rest of the week off from work to get the last few details for the wedding(s) this weekend settled.  I am not sure just how many people will be walking down that aisle on Saturday evening at this point, but am hoping that all this mess will see at least one couple hitched at the end.   I am surprised and happy that I didn't place any bets on the grooms, as the fainter looks to be the one holding up at this point and rumor has it he took his bride to be aside and "had words" with her.  So we have one couple that is not making waves this week at least, but no such luck on the other set.

But now that I have the time off.. Well I am hiding out.  :0)  I am just sooooo done with it all at the moment.  I am done with drama... We have had too much drama in the last few months with moving and helping Jay and Lori move so then to add this wedding madness has just put me over the edge.  I am trying to be a good sport about it all, Alex did put up a really good fight but was unable to keep the wedding from invading us.  His family really does look to him as the older sibling and his dad's health is not good at all... So he feels a lot of pressure to take care of everyone.  Trying to keep that in mind and really trying to make things easy for him at home....Wow, it's just got me really TIRED.

Now let me be really clear... When I say make things easy for him at home, I am talking about running of the house and keeping the kids schedules going...  He really hasn't had to step in on anything for the last few weeks in that regard.  Between the two of us... Well that is different.  It would seem every time we are alone together lately we end up "discussing" something.  Seriously, we can't have a conversation that I don't end up over his knee by the end.  I know that I am pushing him and right now it would be REALLY nice if I could NOT push at him.  Why can't I just stop???  I have been asking myself that exact question for weeks now... I mean WEEKS!!!  Ugh.   Makes me seem like a horrible wife, seeing all the other things he must deal with and I can't seem to pull it together for him.  So I am sitting her feeling horrible about the wedding.. horrible about my attitude and well... just sorta horrible in general.  Grrrrrrr.  

I think we just need a vacation.. The two of us alone for a few days to regroup and get back on track alone without all the other stresses.  I know if we can just make it past Saturday we will be just fine and we will bounce back.  Anyone have a time machine I can borrow and speed this week up so we can be done??  :0)